Friday, September 24, 2010

Taking God's Lead

September 17, 2008

I made a connection today.

As a slumbered, I dreamt I was orchestrating this plan. It was to figure out who dumped toxic material in a local reservoir. The townspeople were sick and the businesses had left.

In the hospital I got eyewitness accounts from sick townspeople of the dumping activities. I had maps marked and I had a plan to bring the people responsible to justice. I had records and charts.

Then, in the dream, my husband erased all my notes, crumpled my plans and destroyed everything I built. My teetering plans for retribution were wiped clean in a single fell swoop.

Then I woke up.

I rolled over and gave my husband a morning hug just as his alarm rang. Today he’d be auditioning for open mic night at a comedy club for the first time. I couldn’t help but think the dream had something to do with this, but I couldn’t tell how.

As a rose, he told me to get some rest, since we’d be up late that night. I wasn’t sleepy, and I told him so. I walked into the kitchen to make him his lunch. God told me to tell him about my dream, I didn’t want to, but I shared anyway.

I hugged him again as he walked out the door and opened up my computer to email someone I forgot to the night before. I read some email, got to one from my homeschooling cyber parent support group. It led me to the third epistle of John.

I read the whole epistle, and then was led to the questions. “Is God trying to tell you follow someone else’s lead?” I instantly knew what the dream was about.

Lord, let me follow your lead today, do what you have in store for me and give my children Your love today.


This was a journal entry made two years ago. I have yet to learn the lesson God was speaking to my heart that day. So much has happened since then. I am seizure and medication free becasue I stopped eating gluten and other foods (you can find the story here about that on my other blog I had a miscarriage, I had a baby, and I had back surgery. All through these trials I feel God's hand leading me. The one thing I can say is that I am redirected much easier than before. :)

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Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Nursing through Nerosurgery - How I continued to breastfeed even after 5 days in the hospital Part 1

Breastfeeding while your baby is separated from you for an extended period of time is difficult, especially when you are taking all sorts of drugs. But when the doctor says you need to stay in the hospital, you usually have no other choice.

This is what happened to me last month. I was quickly diagnosed with a herniated disk that caused my left foot and calf to go numb, not to mention it was almost impossible to walk, sit or stand. I'm not even going to tell you what it was like to visit the potty. After being sent home from one hospital, I was sent to another, fully expecting them to do the same. They didn't. I was left full of milk and no one to feed.

This was less of an issue for my 8 month old, especially since she was already getting supplements of formula through the supplementer. But I was not ready to let go of the relationship just yet, despite the urging of my mother. Concerned about the undue hardship that breastfeeding would cause on my healing body, I was told to "just stop!"

It did take some work to get things going again, but I'm so glad I didn't listen to my mom. What she may not have taken into consideration is the hardship the hormonal drop would have caused if I did stop nursing. I'll detail how I did this in my next post!